OK so here’s why I’m nervous about the audition:
1) I’m not nearly as far along with my training as I wanted to be. I thought that I would work on stuff this summer but these classes that we have been doing just haven’t challenged me the way that I wanted them to.
2) I’m not sure about the commitment involved with the company (driving to Roswell every weekend) but that’s not really a good excuse since Austin has been doing that drive all summer lol. I think I’m more using this as an excuse for the next point.
3) I hate auditions. And honestly, I never do well. I get really nervous and when I get nervous I get really, really shaky, which is not good for dancing. Stage fright sufferer.
4) it cost $340 cash that I have to get by Sunday. All but $15 of it will be refunded if I don’t make it, but still…
5) Being in this company has been my dream since last October, but I’m afraid I won’t make it. I’m not as good as I used to be :( I’m being serious tho. I can’t do a lot of the stuff that the other girls can do anymore. It’s what I was hoping to work on this summer, but it hasn’t happened cuz I’m lazy. :’(
6) As much as I say and feel that I’ve wanted to be in this company, I keep thinking I would have/should have worked harder this summer. Am I lazy/unmotivated/ or really don’t want this as much as I think? Idk I’m frustrated with myself to say the least.
So those are the negatives. Here are the positives.
1) Project 7 is awesome. period. It is probably the best opportunity I have in the state to dance the way I want to dance.
2) It will get me back to the dancer I used to be because I will be able to practice a lot more, with people who finally will challenge me, instead of constantly being underwhelmed.
3) Worst comes to worse I don’t make it and try next year?
